First Love

Ahana was listening to the song 'tear drops on my guitar' on her iPod after her third break up and was shedding tears, not for losing him, but for again getting defeated in the field of love, fighting the battle of good looks.

While she was weeping silently she saw a baby trying to walk and while doing so he fell numerous times but he was determined to walk to where his mother was standing, he once fell near her bench and she immediately picked him up and caressed him asking if he got hurt, but that toddler just kept on laughing and meanwhile his mother came there and sat beside her.

"I am sorry I saw him falling so many times that I could not resist holding him, I hope you didn't mind.", she said smiling feebly and looking at that living bundle of joy and getting lost in his innocence.

Looking at him she was down the memory lane reliving her moments with her first love. She was reminded of her first kiss while walking in the park when he suddenly kissed her making her go blank because all she expected was a kiss on cheeks, she smiled while she thought the way he shouted ‘Happy Birthday’ from outside of her hostel building. She dropped a happy tear thinking how she used to blush when he use to try a shirt chosen by her. She thought of that first peck she gave on his cheek while watching their first movie. The first time he cooked her favourite dish following her guidance. She remembers how he came all the way to railway station at 5 in the morning to have a five minute glance of her when they could not even exchange a word.  She was reminded how he cupped her face and said, “I am always there for you, don’t worry”, when she was depressed.

She even thought of the stupid fights she had with him, the way she scolded him for being unhygienic, the way he use to fight with her for forgetting the topic of their previous fights, yeah in her case she was the one who use to forget the reason of their fights. She remembers how on their first valentine’s day he forgot the rose on someone else’s bike, that she gifted him, and she got angry for that. She remembered how he became angry once when her phone was going busy constantly, and how they didn't talk for four continuous days and after that the fight got over by watching a movie together.

She was thinking all this while she was brought back by the lady's voice that pierced her ears, she said, "Be determined like these small kids who fall but get up again till they learn walking, in the process they get hurt, have bruises, cry a lot but in the end when they succeed they make everyone around them happy, and it’s then when we parents think that all those scars and bruises were worth it, and yes in your case the brain is the parent while your heart is it’s toddling kid.”

She then took her baby and left Ahana alone in the pool of thoughts. 

She learnt two things then.  Firstly, to be a better person, the one with loving and caring heart, she will have to go through the rough patches to become so and secondly, first love is as innocent as a baby, for the couple learns everything from their kiss to love making, it’s their first experience ever.

First love is innocent for it does not know what cheating is, for it just know how to love, the possessiveness is not because of mistrust but out of protection.

First love is love for life time, and you can never forget that no matter how many relations you enter after that. First love is beautiful, it’s pristine and it is innocent.